How Strong Are We?

How strong are we...when i say we, i mean the four of us--steph, kayla, caitlin and i.
i know that steph and i will be tight forever. we have an amazing bond that has withstood 5 years. and that included a fight where we like hated each other's guts. it's endured crushes and stupid misunderstandings and jealousy. me and steph, we are inseperable. attached at the heart and mind, both daughters in Christ forever. together forever, in this life and the next.
kayla and i have been friends for 4 years, super close for the last 2. we are attached at the hip. we go everywhere together. kayla and i are so much alike, it's crazy! we like the same things, think the same way, have the same fashion style...we have an amazing understanding of life and each other. we're going to be close forever, we have to be. losing her would be like losing a part of me.
caitlin and i have been friends for 7 years...the longest. but we have never been overly tight. we've always been friends, but never as close as i have been with either kayla or steph. maybe that is why kayla, steph and me always seem to be "against" caitlin. we don't mean to, but steph, kayla and i are so close...the three amigos. sure, we love caitlin. i can't even imagine what i would do if something happened to her. caitlin is the academic, athletic one. the perfect one.

how far can we make it?

make it or break it, right?

friendship takes work and committment and love and support.


life today was crazy. kayla and steph and i decided that this whole deal with caitlin needed to be solved. and so we decided to talk to her. steph had to go drive, so me and kayla talked to her near the end of lunch. and i don't want to give too many details, cuz it's still hard for me to comprehend what went on. not that it was horrible, but it wasn't good either. it was bad, and heated, and ugly...well let's just say that by the time we went inside and the bell rang, i was about ready to cry. thank goodness i didn't. but i really wanted to just skip fourth, find someone who would skip with me, and just leave and talk and cry and hide.

how horrible am i...i just feel like such a horrible person lately.