Ever been misunderstood, misused, or misled
Ever knocked on the sky and had it fall on your head
well, don't worry 'bout it, don't worry
Ever lost your luggage, your marbles, your house
Or found yourself in bed with Uncle Sam or Mickey Mouse
Ever been accused of murder on Music Row
Or caught in morning traffic when you really gotta go - Oh no!
[Chorus]
Life is funny, life's a mess
Sometimes a curse, sometimes a blessing
Don't worry 'bout a thing, don't worry 'bout it
Life gets sticky, life can bruise
Sometimes you win sometimes your losing
No matter what it brings
Don't worry 'bout a thing
Ever sat yourself down when the seat is all wet
Or see your "ex" sucking face with a little brunette
Don't worry 'bout it, no don't worry
Ever lost your religion, ever lost your best friend
Or found your last record in the bargain bin
Or been stuck in a divorce like crazy glue
Or scraped someone else's gum off the bottom of your shoe - Boo hoo!
[Repeat Chorus]
(Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah - Blah, Blah,Blah, Blah, Blah, - Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah)
Don't worry, don't worry
[Bridge:]
We all got a little junk in the trunk
And when you're feelin' good as sunk
Remember, everything will be just fine
If I laugh at yours then you'll laugh at mine
[Repeat Chorus 2x]
(Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah - Blah, Blah,Blah, Blah, Blah, - Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah)
Don't worry, don't worry
Life gets sticky, life can bruise
Sometimes you win sometimes your losing
No matter what it brings
Don't worry 'bout a thing
(thank you very much)
Friday, November 25, 2005
Thursday, November 24, 2005
So Confused
wow. I really didn't think that life could get any more confusing. But apparently it can.
So I was talking to Tyson today, a really good friend of mine. Coincidentally, also a friend of Kellen's.
So we were talking about Kellen, just 'cause he's been sorta strange lately (wow I have no life, all I talk about it Kellen haha). But anyways, we were just talking back and forth, trying to figure this whole thing out. So Tyson says, "you know that Kellen likes you, right?" and I say "Oh yeah, he told me like a week and a half ago". But then Tyson is saying that Kellen is just trying to get attention from me.
Now, this came as a shock, but at the same time, it didn't. I think it's one of those things when you don't know it, but when it's brought to your attention, you realize that you really did know.
So then Tyson and I talked for like 45 minutes, just trying to figure out what to do with this whole Kellen issue. And we didn't really figure out what to do. And I've been thinking about it ever since, and I'm gonna figure this out! And when I do, I'll put it here so I don't forget ('cause I know I will).
In some ways, it's really sweet that he feels he needs the attention, that he wants attention from me. Sweet, in a very twisted sort of way. I don't want anyone to feel that they need to make me feel bad (Kellen told me that he thinks we can't be friends unless we are more than friends *gag*) just to get attention from me. I want everyone to feel loved by me. The last thing I want to do is hurt myself, or, even worse, would be to hurt a friend.
In another way, I feel very used. I feel like he is just using me to gain friends and attention, to feel loved. Yes, I do love him...as a friend. Right now, that's all I want. The friendship. Maybe later the relationship. But right now, it's just not the right time. I think it would just end up hurting him. But, you never know, things can change in an instant...
And people do keep telling me that we look cute together...
See what I mean when I say that I'm confused???
So I was talking to Tyson today, a really good friend of mine. Coincidentally, also a friend of Kellen's.
So we were talking about Kellen, just 'cause he's been sorta strange lately (wow I have no life, all I talk about it Kellen haha). But anyways, we were just talking back and forth, trying to figure this whole thing out. So Tyson says, "you know that Kellen likes you, right?" and I say "Oh yeah, he told me like a week and a half ago". But then Tyson is saying that Kellen is just trying to get attention from me.
Now, this came as a shock, but at the same time, it didn't. I think it's one of those things when you don't know it, but when it's brought to your attention, you realize that you really did know.
So then Tyson and I talked for like 45 minutes, just trying to figure out what to do with this whole Kellen issue. And we didn't really figure out what to do. And I've been thinking about it ever since, and I'm gonna figure this out! And when I do, I'll put it here so I don't forget ('cause I know I will).
In some ways, it's really sweet that he feels he needs the attention, that he wants attention from me. Sweet, in a very twisted sort of way. I don't want anyone to feel that they need to make me feel bad (Kellen told me that he thinks we can't be friends unless we are more than friends *gag*) just to get attention from me. I want everyone to feel loved by me. The last thing I want to do is hurt myself, or, even worse, would be to hurt a friend.
In another way, I feel very used. I feel like he is just using me to gain friends and attention, to feel loved. Yes, I do love him...as a friend. Right now, that's all I want. The friendship. Maybe later the relationship. But right now, it's just not the right time. I think it would just end up hurting him. But, you never know, things can change in an instant...
And people do keep telling me that we look cute together...
See what I mean when I say that I'm confused???
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Update
Well well well...
So I guess the good thing is that Kellen never ended up leaving. His grandpa came over and yelled at his dad and said he couldn't go to Toronto, so I guess it all worked out. But just for the update, he was mad at me for like 5 days, and I'm not really sure why...it didn't really make sense. But then toda he said that it was all good, that he wasn't mad anymore. I'm not gonna question it yet, because I don't know what to say. And maybe this time is just one of those times when you drop it and don't say anything.
However, Kellen was seriously depressed or something...I'm not exactly sure, 'cause he like just started talking to me again today. But it was just so wierd. Because he wasn't talking to me, I couldn't just go up to him and ask him what was wrong. Well, okay, I tried that, but it didn't work. So I just left it, observed, and talked to other people. I didn't find anything out, really, but he just seemed so upset...it was so hard to see him like that, to see him hurting, and knowing that I couldn't reach him. But I think maybe it helped him a bit, not having me there for a few days. I mean, he knew that he could still come to me, I had made that clear. But he had made it very clear that I had somehow hurt him or broken something, and I wasn't sure what I had done.
But, thankfully, all that is over now. Things are better. Although I still want to know what I did...
Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same
I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain
I've been thinking 'bout everyone, Everyone you looks so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself
lyrics from Stars by Switchfoot
This world, this world is cold
But you don’t, you don’t have to go
You’re feeling sad you’re feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You’re mother’s gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer
Don’t stop searching it’s not over...hold on
lyrics from Hold On by Good Charlotte
So I guess the good thing is that Kellen never ended up leaving. His grandpa came over and yelled at his dad and said he couldn't go to Toronto, so I guess it all worked out. But just for the update, he was mad at me for like 5 days, and I'm not really sure why...it didn't really make sense. But then toda he said that it was all good, that he wasn't mad anymore. I'm not gonna question it yet, because I don't know what to say. And maybe this time is just one of those times when you drop it and don't say anything.
However, Kellen was seriously depressed or something...I'm not exactly sure, 'cause he like just started talking to me again today. But it was just so wierd. Because he wasn't talking to me, I couldn't just go up to him and ask him what was wrong. Well, okay, I tried that, but it didn't work. So I just left it, observed, and talked to other people. I didn't find anything out, really, but he just seemed so upset...it was so hard to see him like that, to see him hurting, and knowing that I couldn't reach him. But I think maybe it helped him a bit, not having me there for a few days. I mean, he knew that he could still come to me, I had made that clear. But he had made it very clear that I had somehow hurt him or broken something, and I wasn't sure what I had done.
But, thankfully, all that is over now. Things are better. Although I still want to know what I did...
Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same
I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain
I've been thinking 'bout everyone, Everyone you looks so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself
lyrics from Stars by Switchfoot
This world, this world is cold
But you don’t, you don’t have to go
You’re feeling sad you’re feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You’re mother’s gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer
Don’t stop searching it’s not over...hold on
lyrics from Hold On by Good Charlotte
Monday, November 14, 2005
The Weekend :'(
Sorry 'bout the sad/crying face, but it's pretty much how I've felt all day.
On Thursday, I found out that one of my best friends, Kellen, is being sent away to a boarding school in Toronto. I've known that he might be leaving for about a month, but it was a real shocker to find out that he is leaving--tomorrow (tuesday). It was horrible. My friend Teaghan and I were crying, we were just so depressed. It's so horrible. So this weekend I've been pretty depressed, trying to come to terms with it, and just talking to Kellen A LOT--a few hours in total! In a way, though, there were some benefits--not of him leaving, exactly, but just the emotion and feeling that it gave us both. We just talked a lot, and there were so many hugs. It was just so...comfortable...to be with each other, just talking and stuff. He's hoping to get out of going, but who knows...his dad is so strict!! And I don't want him to kill himself, or to run away...but he said he wouldn't.
However...this did give us a chance to get feelings out in the open...aka me finding out that Kellen likes me...
It's a good feeling, and I kinda knew it was coming...but at the same time, it just makes it so much harder for him to leave...
Tomorrow's our last day...
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
"Time of Your Life" by Green Day
On Thursday, I found out that one of my best friends, Kellen, is being sent away to a boarding school in Toronto. I've known that he might be leaving for about a month, but it was a real shocker to find out that he is leaving--tomorrow (tuesday). It was horrible. My friend Teaghan and I were crying, we were just so depressed. It's so horrible. So this weekend I've been pretty depressed, trying to come to terms with it, and just talking to Kellen A LOT--a few hours in total! In a way, though, there were some benefits--not of him leaving, exactly, but just the emotion and feeling that it gave us both. We just talked a lot, and there were so many hugs. It was just so...comfortable...to be with each other, just talking and stuff. He's hoping to get out of going, but who knows...his dad is so strict!! And I don't want him to kill himself, or to run away...but he said he wouldn't.
However...this did give us a chance to get feelings out in the open...aka me finding out that Kellen likes me...
It's a good feeling, and I kinda knew it was coming...but at the same time, it just makes it so much harder for him to leave...
Tomorrow's our last day...
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
"Time of Your Life" by Green Day
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Just thinkin'...
I've just been thinking a lot today about change--maybe this is because we've been studying change in school, maybe it's just 'cause I've been "people watching" lately, and I've noticed how much people change. People change so much!! Whether it be from day to day, mood to mood, year to year...people change. And change is usually good--usually.
But yeah. I was reading over some lyrics from some songs, and a song that stuck out was The Reason by Hoobastank. Here are the lyrics...
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
But yeah. I was reading over some lyrics from some songs, and a song that stuck out was The Reason by Hoobastank. Here are the lyrics...
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
Saturday, November 05, 2005
What to do, What to say...
What do you do when your friend is in the middle of something, and won't let you in? How can you reassure them that it will be all right, that it will get better? Are they telling you the truth? Are they exaggerating? Will they do what they say? Can you trust them? Will they keep their promises? Will they run? Will they sleep, only to never wake up again? Is there another chance? Can you do anything? Can anything be done at all? Or have they gone to that place where no one but themselves can pull them back? What do you do, what do you say?
Will you ever see them again...
Will you ever get to have those conversations...
Will you ever get that one last hug...
Will it get better, or is it all downhill?
‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright
lyrics from Perfect by Simple Plan
Will you ever see them again...
Will you ever get to have those conversations...
Will you ever get that one last hug...
Will it get better, or is it all downhill?
‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright
lyrics from Perfect by Simple Plan
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