Saturday, July 28, 2007

More Pictures

hehe...i had fun playing with some picture editing stuff!
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Friday, July 27, 2007

The Moon

i love the moon.

have you ever just sat and watched the moon?

i love the moon. i love to stare at it. i look for it in the sky every night, and i like seeing it during the day, too. i can see it right now. it's white, and almost full, and it's surrounded by darkness. i love the moon.

it's always there, even though it looks different from night to night. and no matter where i go in the world, i look at the same moon.

everyone in the world looks at the same moon.

i sit and watch the moon.

i love the moon.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Posting Isn't Talking

...which means i haven't broken my promise.
i'm sorry, i told myself i wasn't going to talk/complain/ANYTHING about this. but this doesn't count. seeing as it's the only post i've made about this so far this summer, and it's very short and really doesn't say anything about anything. you cannot complain that i don't shut up about this topic. i promised myself that certain things like that wouldn't happen.

yes i realize that the above makes absolutely no sense. but let me be. i'm going crazy.
scratch that.
i'm already crazy.

so to the point of this post...

i miss him.

Michael Buble Lyrics

"You And I"

Here we are
On earth together
It's you and I
God has made us fall in love
It's true
I've really found
Someone like you
Will it stay
The love you feel for me
Will you say
That you will be by my side
To see me through
Until my life is through
Well in my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I...
I'm glad
At least in my life
I've found someone
That may not be here forever
To see me through
But I found strength in you
Cause in my mind
You will stay here always
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I
In my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I...


You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

guess who i'm thinking about


"A happy childhood is the worst possible preperation for life"

the above quote is one i read in a bathroom reader yesterday. and it got me to thinking.

life for me has been reasonably easy. god has certainly blessed me a lot through life. i would say that i'm fairly average in athletic, academic, and social abilities. (if you disagree, please leave me a comment! haha) i have been lucky enough to grow up in a christian home, surrounded at all times by christian family and friends. i have grown up in an amazing church with lots of kids programs and fun youth groups. i have always had the support i've needed, both emotionally and financially. i've had lots of great opportunities for travel, and have had the chance to do lots of fun things. i am very healthy. i go to a good school, live in a good area of town. i have never really wanted for anything without being able to get it.

death has not hit me. and when i say me, i mean it has not hit close to home. the closest that death has come to me would be a great aunt or uncle, whom i barely know. none of the family that i am close to has died. none of my friends have died, and very few of them have had someone extremely important die in their lives.

so when i read this quote...i thought of myself. i have had a happy childhood. is the rest of life, aka the adult life, going to be horrible for me? will i find myself in a place of financial worry? will friends and family walk away, or worse, die? will i suddenly be left alone?

these are my fears. and yes, maybe they seem irrational. but you've got to upbringing, my life...has been easy, it's been good. i love that it's been good, i'm very blessed by god and i know how lucky and blessed i am.

but i worry about my future, and lots of aspects of it. this is just one of them that i have been worrying about lately.

death is a great fear of mine, mainly because it has not hit me yet. i have not really learned how to deal with death. (i haven't even ever had a pet die!).
so i i get older, and the people around me get older...
will death hit me?
and will i be able to cope?

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Dallas Valley

well i'm back from another week away...and i'm not even home, i'm in regina for a few days! but anyways.

just came back from dallas valley ranch camp. it's pretty sweet. 20 minutes out of regina, and pretty much on a hill/valley. the main ranch house is at the top and all the cabins and activities and such are down in the valley. it looks really cool. i really like the camp. (by the way, they said i should be an LIT there next summer! hmm...)

so i was a cook there, along with some amazing people. it was a lot of fun. last year i cooked at a different camp (kadesh) and it was fun too. but yeah this year was really good. we really connected as a kitchen staff and had a lot of fun together. lots of laughs. and i got to dig my hands into some work projects...literally! our head cook, becky, always seemed to give me the fun (but messy!) jobs to do. such as mushing up bananas (just use your hands, katelynn!), mixing up "dirt" for dirt pie stuff, pushing down graham cracker crumbs for cheesecake, etc. yeah i had a lot of fun doing a variety of different things.

and the one morning i was at staff meeting (a different person from the kitchen went down every morning to represent kitchen staff) i was really blessed. just by what the camp director told the staff--who do you want to hear calling your name? (not just parents, friends, or a should want to hear jesus call your name!) and by the counsellors and how they were praying for certain campers and what was on their heart, and just the fun they were having with the campers.

i love camp. i really do. and everytime i go to camp lately, whether i'm a camper or staff or training or whatever...i just have this deep desire to be there. i see so much good god stuff going on at camp, and i see god working in amazing ways through and in people...and i want to be a part of that. i love camp and what it does for people, the effect it has on their lives. and it is just such a desire of mine to be at camp. and i want to be in the cabins, interacting with the campers. i love being in the kitchen, i think it's great. but my heart truly lies with the kids, and that is where i want to be.

on a different note...

the kids were singing "romans 16:19" today for their parents. and i've just been thinking about the verse a bit today.

"But everyone knows that you are obedient to the Lord. This makes me very happy. I want you to be wise in doing right and to stay innocent of any wrong. The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. May the grace of our Lord Jesus be with you." [romans 16:19-20] what is good...(that's how the song goes)

sigh. i love camp.

Monday, July 09, 2007

Summer Hatin'

i find summer really difficult. i find it extremely hard to not be able to talk to certain people every day. i am used to seeing people nearly every day and talking to some people literally every day. i find it really hard not to be able to do that in the summer.

let's face it. i'm an emotional person. i'm constantly on a roller coaster. i'm hyper, i'm sad, i'm happy, i'm angry, i'm bored...and everything in between. and i have people i call for every single stage of that. i let people lean on me all they want. and all i ask in return is that they be a phone call away when i just need someone to talk to.

and in the summer, those people aren't always around for me. or i'm not always around for them. i hate that. i hate not being there for other people for every single thing. i like to be there for every single detail. i hate to miss things.

i hate sitting at home alone, wanting to cry, and not knowing why. i hate sitting around in the summer and eating too much food.

i just hate the summer.

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Home Again

i'm home again...HELLO WORLD! haha

well i am back from my interesting week at mdt. mdt stands for ministry development training, but the theme this week was monastaric development training. we were doing some old school monastary stuff like praying the hours (four times a day praying all together) and some other stuff of the like, like silence and stuff. but i think david said it best when he said mdt stood for Misquitoes Dirt and sweaT! which is so true. the bugs were crazy...not only those little blood suckers that buzz in your ear at night, but the horseflys and wasps/hornets as well. so many people were stung this week which was really painful for them. thankfully i was not bitten but i know a lot of people that were and i felt so bad.
mdt was really cool and a great learning experience in all but i'm not going to go into all the details mostly because i can't remember half of them right now soo i will just let them randomly pop out in other conversations.

so on to my other plans for the summer (just so y'all know and can call me when i'm actually home haha). well i'm around at home this week until friday when i go on the youth retreat WOOT WOOT it will be a party! and then i am staying at my cabin after the retreat for a day then going home with my aunt/uncle/cousins so that i can go to camp with them where i am cooking for a week! yay! i'm excited for that. then i am home for another week, then back to my cabin for two weeks straight where i will be chilling with my family haha and hopefully getting a killer tan! and not whiplash from tubing. then i believe i'm back for another week? then off again to camp at the quest for sr. teen which grace and erin you should both come and i had people come up to me and say WHAT they are not coming to sr. teen? make them!!! so therefore you must both come now. it's not full...sign up! anyways. then after camp back here until school starts! or maybe at my cabin a little bit, not exactly sure on the specifics of that. but yeah that's the rest of my summer.

i'm not really sure what else to say because there is so much that went on this week at mdt but i just don't know how to explain it all and have it come out in a way that would make sense and not be like "oh you had to be there" kind of thing. so i guess i will just leave it. i really need something interesting to post about. maybe something will hit me? and maybe not. but hopefully i'll be able to somewhat keep up with this blog in the summer...i guess we'll just have to wait and see.