Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Struggling

GOD PLEASE GIVE ME PEACE AND FREEDOM FROM THIS BEAST. I AM STRUGGLING SO MUCH WITH PAST EVENTS. I KNOW THAT I DO NOT NEED TO WORRY ABOUT THE PAST, AND I DO NOT NEED TO BORROW TROUBLES FROM TOMORROW. YOUR WORD HAS PROMISED ME THAT IT IS ALL TAKEN CARE OF. AND YET GOD, I AM STRUGGLING WITH THIS SO MUCH. WHY CAN'T I JUST LET THIS GO? I KNOW I DID THE RIGHT THING...I TRULY BELIEVE THAT. WHY WILL THIS BEAST JUST NOT LET ME GO? PLEASE, OH GOD, GIVE MY MIND PEACE, AND FREEDOM FROM THIS BEAST THAT IS CONSUMING ME...IT IS TAKING OVER MY LIFE.

This prayer is sent up to heaven on urgent business--I have things in my recent past that I can just not seem let go of.

This break up has had so much after effect...

Why does doing the right thing come with so many side effects?

1 comment:

grace said...

heyy Katie!!! i just wanted to let you know that I had an awesome weekend hanging with you..lol and yeah. love ya lots and call me!!! oh yeah and blender!!!! hahahahha
-duckie
p.s. god's cool