i hate myself sometimes.
first, i'm doing so good with food issues, that i'm eating healthy foods and generally healthy portions.
then, i go home and pig out on anything and everything.
so much for being a healthy size/weight by eating right.
and then i get so mad at myself that i don't eat for a while!! but then food looks so good, that i binge again!
it's like i can't control the way i eat!
it's either way too much, or not enough.
doesn't help that i don't like to eat in front of people. i'm still way too cautious about what people might think about me.
i don't want people to judge me.
even though it's just food.