i absolutely hate the feeling that i am feeling right now. i've felt it before, and can't stand it. but i can't remember how to get rid of it!! last time i think i just waited it out...just sat quietly and waited for it to leave me alone. but i don't want to do that this time. i want it to leave me alone--NOW!
i guess i should explain what this feeling is. well, it's the feeling of lonliness. but not lonliness because no one is around me, because i'm not fighting with anyone. it's the feeling when you are surrounded by people, but yet feel all alone. not connecting on the same level that i normally am.
my relationships with people are fine. well, at least they seem fine, but maybe i need to examine them closer because if i am feeling alone there is something wrong, somehwere in life. i just don't know where in my life it is.
so i guess i'm just wandering, looking into things but not taking the time to really explore the areas of my life, and in not taking that time, i am letting important things (and relationships) rot away on me.
so in an answer to my own question, i guess i just need to take the time to examine my life.
and once i've done THAT, i'll be back with more questions. because i know there will be things in every aspect of my life that i need to work out.
so here goes nothing.
walking around in the dark...i've never been good at that.
will someone please loan me a flashlight?