i hate feeling jealous, because i know that it is wrong. i know that i am not supposed to feel that way. and often when i do feel that way, my feelings aren't really justified; they don't have a good reason of being there.
i have a problem with jealousy...and i've known it for a while. and tonight it just kinda struck me--as i became jealous, once again. and all of the sudden it was like, why am i feeling this way? i don't need to.
so i'm working on not being jealous anymore. yes it's been about an hour since i decided that...but it's something that i really need to work on. a big downfall of me as a person is jealousy, it is definately a problem area in my life. and it needs to disappear! so that's why i'm working on. so i looked up what the BIBLE had to say about being jealous, and here's what i found...
Surely resentment destroys the fool, and jealousy kills the simple.
For I can see that you are full of bitter jealousy and are held captive by sin.
The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.
For jealousy and selfishness are not God's kind of wisdom. Such things are earthly, unspiritual, and demonic. For wherever there is jealousy and selfish ambition, there you will find disorder and evil of every kind.
so pray for me as i work hard to not be jealous...it won't be an easy task. and i know that! but i'm willing to work for it.