why are guys so stupid? im not even kidding, this situation that im in right now has got to be one of the stupidest things on the planet.
okay so here's the sitch:
morgan is going out with justin. sean likes morgan. sean wants to go out with morgan, but morgan wants to go out with justin (or possibly another guy but that's a whole other story). so now sean is telling people that he likes me and that he wants to go out with me. and apparantly he's gonna ask me out.
now here's where things get really trippy.
morgan and kayla and i were talking about this today, and we think we've figured out what is really going on. we think that sean is just trying to go out with me to make morgan jealous or something so that she will break up with justin and go out with sean. after she dumps justin, sean will dump me, and they will go out. sean gets what he wants, morgan gets a boyfriend that will do stuff with her, and justin and i get broken hearts.
but that's where sean goes wrong.
we have figured out his plan. and if he goes with it like we think he will, then it's not gonna work out. because if he asks me out, im gonna say no. which i was gonna say anyways (im sticking to this not dating till im allowed--although i will admit that i had some second thoughts and kinda wanted to go out with him...anyways that's a different story...). and im really hoping that morgan won't dump justin unless she really doesn't like him...but mostly im hoping that she won't go out with sean. because morgan and i are pretty close...and im hoping that she would never do something like that. sean is trying to use me to get morgan...which is horrible! in fact, like if this is what he's tyring to do, i don't even know how i can be friends with him...i mean, sure im still gonna be friends with him. but it gives me a whole new opinion and view of him.
i actually hope that all of this is not true and im just making it all up...because i never would've seen sean doing something like this. and i think it hurts more to see sean doing something like this than it actually would to have him dump me if i went out with him.
oh, the life of a niner...it's so hard!!
stupid grade nine...stupid relationships...stupid boys...
the one that i am trusting completely and fully right now is GOD...as close as i am with my friends, they could be fickle (i can't believe im saying that!!). but they are only human...but GOD is perfect, GOD is unchangable, GOD gives unconditional love...
i guess i will just have to be remembering that as i go through this week.
GOD THIS IS GOING TO BE HARD. PLEASE JUST MAKE YOURSELF KNOWN AT MY SIDE, AND DON'T LET ME FALL. HOLD ME CLOSE, JESUS. HOLD ME VERY CLOSE...