Sunday, June 17, 2007

First Kiss Dilemna


i never thought kissing would be this confusing! but let me explain.

i have never been kissed by a boy. on the lips. just to get that straight.

mason is my partner in a drama scene that we have to perform for our drama final. in the scene, we have to have an "accidental" kiss. there was a long passionate kiss, but we cut it. we thought we could cut this little kiss too, but it ruins the motive for the character, which kills the scene. so we decided to do it. it's just supposed to be an accidental brush of lips.

so i told keith about it today. and he's...ok. he doesn't really like it, but i don't really like it either. he knows that it's just drama and you can't do a lot about that, and that it doesn't mean anything.

but it's too late to switch scenes...as it is, mason and i are behind.

i feel like i am making excuses to keep this kiss to mason in my life. it's really confusing me. because i don't want my first kiss to be with mason. and i don't want to make keith feel jealous, and i don't want any of this. but i feel stuck, because there isn't really anything i can do. we thought we could cut that part when we initially picked the scene, but found that we can't.

this kiss is small, and there are ways to make it extremely minimal. and i told keith that he can come watch us perform the scene if that makes him feel any better. and talking about this, i think, is making a bit better for him.

but i still feel really bad. but i'm just not sure what else there is left to do.

6 comments:

Erika said...

i don't know if this will help at all...but it really is only a stage kiss. i don't see any reason to worry about it, unless you feel something between you and mason...then you have to tell keith for sure. but it is drama, and you guys are only acting, so don't let it bother you too much!

Erika said...

haha and just a thought...if you don't want your first kiss to be with mason, just kiss keith first! lol...not that i would advise rushing anything...

Lynette said...

yeah, i agree with erika, it's not your "first kiss"...

enji said...

okay, so, this is kinda weird, but i had this really weird dream thinger like last summer, (that i somehow still remember)that there was this girl in a play that had never been kissed and she was in a "kissing scene". like, this is really weird. because from what you've just said, i had a dream that was EXACTLY like what your going through except that your dating someone.
anyhoo, the end of my dream, this girl tells the guy she's doing the scene with that she wants her first kiss to be with someone that she likes/loves so they fall in love and then he kisses her.
i'm not saying that you should fall in love with mason (lol)
ditto what erika said about kissing keith first but not rushing it. tell keith you want your first kiss to be special and if he doesn't respond, then remember to pray about it and... that's all the advice i got.
tell me how it goes...

enji said...

i am so a prophet.
(lol) just kidding

Erika said...

i know erin...we've got some kind of crazy dream thing going on! lol