Sunday, March 11, 2007

I Don't Understand

I hate it when i can't understand something. i absolutely hate it. it's one thing for my parents to say no to something, it's another for them not to have a reason. or a very bad reason. or for them to have a reason, and when i ask them to explain it to me, they say something like "you'll understand when you're older" or "because we said so" or "we're more comfortable this way". it really frustrates me! and i've had a whole lot of it lately. basically because keith asked me if i wanted to hang out this afternoon. he had some stuff planned and it sounded like a really fun time, and i was really looking forward to it. but my parents said no. and all because the plan was for it to be just keith and i hanging out. we hadn't invited anyone else, we wanted to do some stuff that we had been talking about for a while, and crazy stuff that belonged to insiders. and my parents said no purely because we wouldn't be in a group situation. so naturally once they finally told me that keith and i tried to find people to hang out with, therefore making it a group situation and allowing me to be a part of it. but no such luck, it was too late. everyone already had plans or homework or something. so we both ended up spending the afternoon at our respective houses, quite bored. which is dumb, because we wouldn't have been bored if we were together! i don't really understand why my parents said no. like in some ways i get it, they don't want me to be alone with a guy, blah blah blah. but we were gonna be at his house, and his parents were there (and yes i told my parents that) so i don't really get it. he's been here when my parents have been home, what's the difference between my house and his house, other than at my house my parents can watch us like hawks? plus it's not like we had anything dirty in mind...we didn't, i can assure you. other than dating behind their backs, we've never done anything to cause them not to trust either of us, especially when we're together. and i keep telling them--we don't want to hang out because we're trying to get around the no dating rule. that's not our intentions. we just want to hang out and spend time together because we enjoy each other's company. we have a lot of fun together...but it's pretty hard to keep a friendship going with someone when you're not allowed to see them outside of group situations. i'm scared that i'm gonna lose him as a friend if i never get to spend any quality time with him. the only time we see each other is for mexico meetings, youth, church, and worship practice. and we don't even talk that much! well we talk but we don't like do anything, it's all group situations...to nurture a relationship (and i'm purely talking about friendship here) you have to spend some quality time with people...and i don't want to lose him.

3 comments:

Lynette said...

honey, i know it's frustrating, but remember what Leyton said this morning....even if we don't understand or agree, we're called to honor and obey them. And they do have your best interests in mind...it's hard to explain, but i can totally see where your parents are coming from.

And don't worry about losing your friendship with Keith due to a lack of one-on-one time....

gracie said...

ill be praying for u

.into.the.rush. said...

you and keith definitely have a strong friendship, so you don't have to worry. you can build that friendship as much in a group situation as you can one on one.