Wednesday, December 27, 2006

100th Post!

well i would just like to state that this is the 100th post on this blog. ain't that exciting?? actually, i find it kind of interesting...i've been on this blog for over a year, kind of off and on i guess you could say. been on here a lot in the last couple months.

but besides the fact that this is my 100th post (whoopee)...i really don't have that much to say. and no this isn't going to be a completely random post, like most of mine have been lately.

i don't have much to say, because i've been pretty out of it over the last couple days. i've been listless and not enthusiastic...which is very strange for me. i've also been extremely exhausted as of late...and i've been getting a lot of sleep.

i just don't really know what's going on with me. but i'm so out of it, that in some ways, i don't even care. i'm past bored. i'm just sitting around doing nothing. i've watched a couple movies that i don't even want to watch...but yet i sit there and watch them, for lack of anything better to do. over the last couple days i have just sat in random places in my house and just stared out the window, or at a random inanimate object. just sitting and starting, for sometimes 15 or 20 minutes at a time. just because i don't have anything better to do.

and i guess i'm not really making anything for myself to do. but i don't really feel like it. my mom keeps asking me what i want to do, and if i want to play a game, and all that. and i don't. for some strange reason, i'm perfectly content to just sit there and stare.

the funny thing is that when i did hang out with a couple friends yesterday and today, i was fine. or at least very close to fine.

i don't know what's going on. i wasn't excited for christmas, i don't really care. maybe i'm just so far past bored that nothing is affecting me.

in any matter, it feels really wierd to not really be bored or anything; it's a very strange feeling to just sit around and stare.

but i haven't been smiling of laughing overly much, and that's kinda starting to freak me out. maybe the all-nighter will do me some good. or maybe i'll just fall asleep.

2 comments:

.into.the.rush. said...

congrats!

grace said...

nice buddy. umm yeah i kinda have been feeling similar to u. like my dads asking me if i wanna go to the ocean and if i want to go shopping and im like, im freally just fine here..its weird cause i love the ocean i just want to be alone kinda and do my own thing